delayed response

I found myself angry for the first time today.
i think its been coming for awhile

angry
for canceled vacations
for the purging of our 'virtual archive'

angry
for photos that make my heart break because of the passion contained in them
and for photos that are not mine that make me feel dismissed.

my anger surprises me and angers me more
because i have been so diligently searching and analyzing and tip-toeing
to make sure im not being reactionary in my new life
and in that work, and distraction and peace and happiness,
somewhere,
i skipped the part where i get to be angry.